Today.

Today I played with my kids.  I laughed my butt off as my youngest continued to shoot himself in the face with a squirt gun (he too was laughing all the while).  I scanned 110 picture of my parents and siblings.

I got teary-eyed while looking at said pictures.  Today I told Kaden about his great grandma Libby and that she is in heaven with God.

 I watched Kaden boss around his younger cousin Noah, much to my dismay.  I mopped the kitchen and living room floor.  I missed Jeremy while he was at work.  I paid some bills.  I folded a load of laundry.  Today I listened to Jeremy tell me how he gave a girl $20 at the gas station by our house because she said her "debit card got declined and needed money to get home, and the reason I'm here is because I'm pregnant and I had to get some tests done....." and that he realized it was probably a scam seconds later.  Today I got in the car and drove to the same gas station intending to tell the woman just what a horrible person she is for preying upon the kindness of others. I saw her asking two other men for money, while her boyfriend waited in the car counting money.  I shook with anger.   Today I (reluctantly) turned the other cheek instead.  I told Jeremy not to worry, what goes around comes around.  I felt the kindness of a woman who offered me a 50% off coupon at the fabric store.  I watched the movie Totoro for the 100th, or so, time.  I smiled listening to Eva and Kaden playing pretend.

 I helped Kaden bury a June bug and explained, again, that our bodies stay here on earth, but our souls go to live with God in heaven.  Today I cried talking to Jeremy about my Grandma.  I got a little creeped out when the bathroom door shut and lights went out while we were talking about her.  I drank a glass of wine.  It was a day filled with disappointment and joy.  Sadness and happiness.  Tears and laughter.  Deceit and kindness.  Today was a good day.